I think that Elgin is totally awesome.

Can't thank God enough for him. =)

Sickening.

Woke up on Saturday morning to discover I was running a fever high of 38.3. A bad start to the day made everything else worse thereafter.

Woke up on Sunday to discover I was almost recovered. Got complacent, met up with a few friends and enjoyed the night together. It was a great time spent after so long. Hahahahaha...

Woke up today to discover I was actually not quite recovered. Took leave, consulted a doctor and stayed home.

Life is full of ups and downs? =P

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Question of the day:

HOW MUCH DO YOU TRUST YOUR DOCTOR?

For me, due to unsatisfying past experiences, I only have trust of Level 2 or 3 on a scale of 10.

I wish they'd stop issuing painkillers so carelessly before finding out the actual problem. Those painkillers simply silence the underlying problem which is screaming out for help. Analogically speaking, it's like burying alive a man trapped in a hole. When the man is eventually covered up, you can't hear his screams and you assume it's peace. But the man is still inside, dead or alive, there's no denying.

Pain, as I've understood, is our body's way of bringing to our attention the malfunction of some body parts. Since they can't speak for themselves, pain is the indicator.

Pain makes you draw your hand away when in contact with hot objects, it prevents excessive blood loss due to cuts and so forth. In a nutshell, pain forces us to take action immediately before anything worse happens.

Be thankful for pain? =P

Another thing is, to identify our sicknesses, they can't use a 'one size fits all' kind of method. If you happen to have Symptoms A, B and C, it doesn't mean you have Sickness X.

But of course, we must play our part as a patient too if we want doctors to as accurately narrow down the kind of sickness we are actually contracting. Make sure to describe to the doctors as clearly as we can what we are suffering from.

However, as doctors, they should play their part as well, not just in identifying the sickness and issuing the matching medicine. They can actually enhance the consultation further by asking the patients more relevant questions, and providing some useful facts that will give them a better understanding of what is actually happening in the body.

MAKE YOUR CONSULTATION FEE WORTH. Ask them lots of questions. Prepare beforehand. (Tip from my sec sch Bio teacher =P)

( I used to consult a doctor regarding sinusitis and I think I was overly curious as to how sinusitis come about. He ended up drawing the inner structure of the nose and explaining explicitly. LOL.)

Hmmm... Of course now I have to side the doctors to provide a more balanced view point. Lol... (Learnt from GP teacher lol)

Hmmmmm..... I think... I think... And I think...

Maybe.... Just maybe... Singapore is lack of doctors? Or Singaporeans are always falling sick?? That the doctors have to shorten/hasten each patient's consultation period?

From a newspaper article I read some time ago, the doctors in Singapore are really overworked. And becos of what?? US! The sick people! So I shall not complain further. Hehe. We also can't satisfy everyone right haha.

Well, just a piece of my mind,

Share your views!

I'd rather spend the bad times with you... Than good times with someone else.

"Steady hands, just take the wheels."

- One Republic "Stop and Stare"

A lot of times, I wonder if I'm too impulsive or if I'm just too certain of what I want. It's just a fine line between both. Maybe I'm just carefully reckless? (Oxymoron =P)

Like when I decided to pick up piano again after being stagnant (or downhill) for 2 years, I went ahead without second thought and got myself one teacher (thx to Little Giant). And since then, have been faithfully attending every Friday's lesson with the same, if not more, enthusiasm.

(^;^)v

And when I decided to pick up cello again, Steph got me a teacher and I proceeded to buy myself a cello, almost drying up my bank account. ='( It hurt. But it's worth it, it's such a beautiful instrument.

Thru Leon, I got into CHPO cos I was dying to play in an orchestra (Not dong dong chiang kind though =P). A vision I got many years ago. Still don't know why Tat Haur allowed me in since I was a total amateur then. "There can be miracle...... When you believe....."

Then I wasn't faithful in attending lessons or practise on my own!!!! And even 'rejected' my cello a few times!!!! Bad and unaccepted behaviour!!! For a while, I was even convinced that I can never be a good cellist.

After conquering numerous torturous mental battles, and praying to God to help me play better... I decided that there's no turning back. Glad that things are slowly improving right now...

"Don't give up on me cos I'm on my way..."

- Corrinne May "I'm On My Way"

Looooooooong way..................

Just doing some self-reflection... Painting a clearer picture ahead....

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Anyway, just received a letter from NUS informing me that I'm short-listed for *gasp* NURSING. (2nd choice) Don't laugh! My dad thought it was a big joke.

He is now telling me what to say during the interview. I hope I don't burst out laughing man.

But yea, it's fine. Cos I've actually thought of becoming one after my O level, just too big a decision to be reckless on that then. =P

Still hope I can get into FASS (1st choice) though.

God is really amazing, cos I was just praying for my uni enrolment 2 nights ago. Gotta keep knocking until the door is open, keep seeking until you find, keep asking until you receive...

"But I'm stubborn in the things I believe..."

- Corrinne May (Can't rem the song title)

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Ok la, gotta rest. Too many surprises recently...

Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps...

Sometimes I find myself becoming very calm and nonchalant. Why oh why... It may even spell "dao" to some. (But I hope not) 

A lot of people told me that I'm always in my own world. I guess it's true. Well... It's good to mind our own business right. Perhaps that's just an excuse? My policy has always been this - If I have nothing better to say, just shut up.

However, it doesn't mean that when I am quiet, my mind is filled with negativity... I just have the tendency to withdraw back to my innately introvert self at times. (Bird should know right =P)

Perhaps I'm probably just too used to being in my world? Or perhaps, people just haven't discovered the joy of solitude... Of being so comfortable with yourself, you have no qualm being alone anywhere and presenting to the world the real you.

Perhaps, I should step out of my comfort zone? But perhaps, it's better to be myself?

Hehehe.  A very productive Monday~

Skipped lunch and dinner due to time constraint lol... Busy at work and had to go down to NAFA for cello lesson (I finally went) at night. There was a Quartet performance before lesson so I sneaked in during a short break to watch. Steph was there too! Lol...

Lesson was real refreshing after 1 month of disappearance. Teacher commented that I've improved!!! I told him honestly that I haven't been practicing though. Only until last night when I was suddenly so engrossed in playing (maybe due to the new tuner) that I practiced for 2 hours till 1.20am Lol... Totally lost track of time man... (and I really dislike any interruption during practices...)

We played duet! Nice!! But gotta learn to relax my body when playing and not tense up. And still have to learn to play with my bow perpendicular to the strings...

It's back to the basics again and again... Playing scales over and over again... Practice makes perfect! Yea!

Said something which sounded very wrong... "I keep playing on my G string!" Lol... Oops. So must also learn how to bow only on 1 string and not hit neighbouring strings.

And if there's something like a favourite note, mine would be "G". Cos it sounds very soothing to me.

Loving Cello more and more! =) Hope to improve at a faster rate from now on...

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One of the best thing to be 21 for me is that....

THE GOVERNMENT IS GIVING ME 1/2 OF $1K!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Let's support our government! Go Singapore!!!

(^;^)v

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The best thing in life is doing the things you love with the person you love.

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Finally bought a TUNER.... (Thx Marilyn for the help)  My intonation on the cello should only get better from now. Nearly gave up in the beginning when I joined CHPO, gotta thank my stubbornness. I only gave myself 1 choice, that is, to improve. MUST.

*It's all in the mind.*

Have been ponning lessons for a month already though. Lol. I must gai guo zi xin and resume next week. Waha... Must!

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*When God gives us a vision, He will give us the provision.*

Amen!

Just bidded for 2 of Mary Higgins Clark books on eBay hehehe. $9.50 for both. It's a steal man. Why are books and CDs so expensive? =(

It's more worth buying CDs than books I think, cos I can listen to it a hundred times and still like it. Don't remember ever reading a book twice though. =P

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Eric and friendly Baby Jordan. Picture perfect! (^;^)v

Think he's one of the funniest conductors around lol...

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Dinner with Dad on Monday @ THE MUSHROOM POT!! Lol... He kept singing praises of that place, so that means it's really good. (Elgin loves it too =P) Kind of a waste we are not very good eaters. Don't know how/why my appetite has shrunk over the years.... I find it strange. =P

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Quote of the day while trying to get to Cai (who was 2 steps away) in a crowded train

Cai: Aileen, please learn to say 'Excuse me' next time.

!!

Lol...

Fun Marathon

 

JJC

Your Friendly Neighbourbood School

Fun began on Friday afternoon when I met up with Yu Su to go back to JJC to collect my cert. Never did I know how much I missed JJ until I stepped into that school again after 1.5 years...

That I took photos of the school which used to be so familiar, I didn't take notice.

A Glimpse of JJ

4 Houses

At the grand stand overseeing our 500K (or according to YS 2M? Lol can't rem) synthetic field which had an ongoing Inter-JC soccer match and classes doing their PC running round the new track muahaha...

Our flying fox which the graduating batch was supposed to slide down!!!

Clean and green. That's the library in front.

 

LT5! Nicest LT. A few of us used to play on the stage when no one was there hehe. There's a grand piano behind the curtain too.

Corridor leading to the canteen.

 

Bare, or rather, neat garden surrounded by classrooms.

*New!*

 

*New too!*

Me and YuSu at the grandstand. Nice dimples she has!

A Glimpse Into The Past

So miss wearing school U...

Hard at work. LOL... Riiiiight....

Hehe cute. (^;^)v

A Glimpse Of JJ's Teachers

Ms Wun our Biology teacher! The brightest and most brilliant teacher ever! So happy that she got promoted to become the HOD of Science. YES!

(Didn't get to see them so took pictures of their pictures =P)

Serene Ng Xiao Wei our Chemistry teacher. Very patient and fun to bully, aka friendly. Lol... Yang was appointed Chem rep by her. *Ahem*

Mr Seah a PE teacher who is fun to play with. Someone whom I got a little closer to due to my frequent ponning of PE. It's a total irony. lol..

*Drumroll* Not forgetting our cutest DM cum maths teacher Mr Lee! A teacher who can joke with a serious face.

Managed to see him at the concourse!!! As usual busy with his civil defense things.. lol... Here is him with his classic pose. He really loves this pose.

So happy to see him and vice versa. He wanted to treat us to the whole canteen. Lol. In the end we had ice cream while he talked and talked for almost an hour. He really loves talking. 

While telling us about his present life in JJ, he stood and went over to a guy who was bouncing a bball. As expected, he SHOUTED at him to stop bouncing. After which he came back to our table and continue his monologue. Lol. Talk about randomness.

He inforced his topic on the Art of Scolding (Ma ren de yi su) to us again as we listened patiently. LOL...  Once his students, always his students!!!! He actually welcomed us back to attend his lectures! Anybody interested? Hehe.

Drop by JJ to visit if you're free!!!!!!! I could feel the warm JJ spirit muaha. Even the canteen vendors remembered us! And the friendly drink store auntie even offered us drinks! Hehe. Chatted up with the security guard too at the gate as we were leaving... Everyone was so approachable and friendly!

I have ying-sui-si-yuan-ed, what about you?

Wahahahaha... -_-

(A literally long entry)

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Performance @ Expo

It was fun to the max. Think it was our best so far too. Glad that everything went well. NO BOMBS!

I woke up on Sunday morning 6am feeling like the happiest person on planet Earth. Lol. Glad that one of my dreams became a reality. NEVER GIVE UP. Keep going against all odds. Accept criticisms with an open heart. NEVER DESPISE THE DAYS OF SMALL BEGINNING.

(Hehe ok ok enough...)

The choir was fantastic too. During Sunday's perf on the 3-bar rests for Cello, I actually closed my eyes and listened to the Hebrew part. Aww... It was really sweet. I wished that moment could last longer.

Hope the audience enjoyed it as much as we enjoyed playing.

(^;^)v

 

Tell me, what's going on inside of me?
I despise my own behavior.

- DC Talk "In The Light"

A Day Gone Wrong

 

Didn't have the strength to face the day. Mentally exhausted I'd say. I need a break to collect back all the pieces of me which I have given out.

Tonight's rehearsal took the remaining remnants of me. Gave my all. Apart from omitting 1 bar and playing an extra note, I think I've improved much more from last week. That was good enough. Kinda made my day a little better...

Me and Marilyn just weren't ourselves tonight. Heh. Well...

Orchestra will once again perform with the adult choir this weekend but only @ Expo. Think it will blow the church off hehe. No doubt, it's been great fun rehearsing. There is a little arrangement in the sitting position of the players... The 3 cellists are now seated in the middle front row, directly under the conductor's nose. 

Hope I won't 'throw bombs' during performance... Eric's stare can dry up every blood vessel in my face.

Yet another emo shot... Hope it can perform magic  just for those 2 days...

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Sunsets

On my way for piano lesson... In front of Gek Poh. (Orange, Pink, Purple, Blue!!!)

An emo shot. Guess where??????? =P 

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3rd month~ =) It's scary how we are starting to think alike and at the same time... (^;^)v

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